No Complaints…Lots of Time!

Ok, before I say this, let’s just accept that this is a statement of fact, and it is NOT a complaint, ok?

This shit is hard.

I am still riding the ‘no-complaint’ train. I know, I know, it’s been a while.  Today is day 3. Again. I have changed my bracelet since then, and yes, I still have to restart every few days.  I changed the bracelet because the little string that I was wearing was too unnoticeable. It even fell off one day and it took me a little while to notice.  Not very good for keeping it top of mind or giving the project importance. I still have to restart often because…this is me we’re talking about and I’ve got shit to say.  😉

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It’s rose quartz; way more noticeable, plus, it’s super-pretty and supposed to promote love.

 

But boy, I have really honed in on those triggers.  It’s all pretty much like I was saying previously; the same old shit pisses me off, and a happy healthy, well-rested Jennnq doesn’t bitch very much at all.  Subtract a little sleep and get me underfed, and I’m under my own personal little dark rain cloud. The little dark rain cloud overhead makes this bracelet thing that MUCH more challenging.  I’m still here. I’m still working on it.

In other news, I am doing more with running again, or trying to.  I have my sights set on finally running the “Hypothermic Half,” which is a half marathon race run here in Newfoundland.  In February. So that’s 13.1 miles, in potentially icy, snowy, and definitely hilly conditions, while the good ol’ Newfoundland wind whips the snot outta ya. Sounds pretty badass to me!

It’s been a while since I have run more than a few miles, and a feel slow, and I need to kind of get back, you know?  I hope to let you guys in on my progress.  It’s going to take me a bit of goin’ to get myself from 3 plodding miles to 13 much faster ones.  Let’s do this!

Lastly, I am working on a new project!  I’m not going to tell you what it is yet, but I am excited! It’s going to be tied to this blog, and you shall be seeing evidence of it shortly.  (Part of me is already mortified, and part of me can’t wait!) I do hope you like it!

Wishing you light, life, and love,

-Jennnq

 

Hitting the Week Running

I ran 6 miles yesterday, and I am definitely feeling it.  I am getting back to running!  Although it is hard to come to terms with my current limits, (did I really used to be able to run 18 miles at a stretch?) just being out and being well enough to pound pavement is such a gift.

Running and I go way back.  I was never fast, and I was far from being “athletic” as a kid.  I guess I always admired runners, and was fascinated by the sport. Once I finally got to know long slow distance, I kinda fell in love.

Like with weightlifting or the theater, I think once you pass a certain point you’re an addict. I love it, but it comes with a bundle of nerves every time.  That feeling lasts at least until I manage to get going, although I sometimes even get butterflies about running while I’m running.  It’s a strange feeling; like I am not sure if I can do it, even though I have done it plenty of times before.  But the nerves are bundled up with joyful excitement too. There’s this primitive part of my brain that is always ecstatic about running.  That’s enough for me to keep returning to it.

Even if the road was tough, you can’t help but feel better after a run.  I struggled a bit yesterday to find my pace.  Still, around mile 3 I finally figured it out, and I felt pretty great from there.  It is nice to be happily recovering on Monday morning.  

I feel like I’m ready, more or less, to start another week.  I am hoping to be all-round “better” this week; more productive, more active, and more in line with my own ideals.  I am trying to do more of what matters to me, and still working on that work-life balance thing.  Running seems like a good start for that.